If...

If only you would have asked...
Seen beyond my past.
Listened to my words.
Heard what was assured.
If only you had looked....
Instead of reading books..
You would have felt, a love to make you melt.
If only you would feel.
The me that's actually real.
The one that no one see's.
With you I feel at peace.
I try to let you see.
The me I want to be.
The one who still wants love.
I only need a shove.
But this I am denied.
Though I've held you while you cried.
You speak of doubts so bold.
and you leave me in the cold.
When all i want is you
to hold, dear and true.
Now a friend is all i'll be.
Because you will never see.
A love that you let go.
One you'll never know.
You're stuck inside the past
With a love you cant get past.
I hope that its the one.
Because you and I are done.

The first steps a doozy.

From my soap box I will fall.

It actually wasn't hard at all!

From How could you, to how could I.

I judged harshly and without mercy.

Yet was judged with kindness and love.

How can a friend I have know casually on and off for 5 years treat me better, than I treated some one I loved deeply for 10!

I owe an apology I hope i'm man enough to give one day...